Sad...

I still don't have my pay!

For some reason, it's still being held. I'm the only one left with no pay. The rest of the people have already taken it on thusday! Mine is being held back. Thus, no shopping YET. I came out with a wishlist on the side of my blog. Hoping that I won't forget what I have to spend my money on. This feeling sucks to the max actually. To have your paid held back for so long, and am the only one left with nothing on a weekend. I'm currently using my emergency funds.

What is the use of having a boyfriend?

I just quarrelled with mine. He has no time for me. Always thinking that he has no time for his family. So he comes over to stay. And I can feel that his family isn't quite happy about it. Well, I did not ask him to stay. And I only wanted time to 'pator'. It has been 1 year plus now. Things are already very dull. Quarrelled about it, shouted about it, talked about it, things are still the same. He thinks that he coming over to sleep is a way to accompany me.
I just want to go shopping sometimes, sale hunting. Food hunting, which I guess would be his favorite. Just some time OUT. But he doesn't get it. I'm tired of it. Having to plan everything. It makes me feel like I'm the guy at first. Now as days goes by, it makes me feel like I'm desperate.
So, back to the question, Why be together? A boyfriend is suppose to make you feel that way? I'm so tired I don't even want to care. I feel that he is very lazy to do anything for me. Other then coming over to sleep-over. Sometimes I even think that I'd better off be alone.
Funny thing is that we talked about it yesterday. I was craving for waffles. And  movie. asked him out and was turned down straight. "I feel like staying home". So be it!
He says he is planning to meet me tomorrow. Which is after work, and he ends at about 730pm or even later. Shop what? I told him, we will only be seeing people cleaning up and closing. So he will be over at my house again. FOR SLEEP. Sick.
I've did everything I could to spice up our relationship. It takes 2 hands to clap and I'm freakin' tired. I guess I need a few days off. Without him.
I told him (Honestly) how much and why I hate him. But it doesn't help too. It's starting to get on my nerves.
Now that I SMS him telling him to do whatever he wants, there isn't any SMS. What am I to him? -Nothing important.